Its beginning to look a lot like..... seasonal depression.

I'm in a funky mood lately. Lets start with my absent mindedness. I have lost my car twice in the past week. Twice. Wandering around trying to remember where I parked it. For several minutes. WTF? And I didn't drive it home under the influence of anything. So either I'm completely retarded or something in my brain isn't working. 

I've been sleeping a lot recently. I think I'm depressed. And hungry. I've been following my points really well this week, so I've got that going for me. However, I'm a little lonely. I'm not one of those girls who always has to have a boyfriend, but I am one of those girls who really likes to have a conquest in mind or a crush to pine over. It kind of bothers me that I don't. I'm reasonably attractive so what the fuck is wrong with me. Its like I repel men instead of attracting them. I'm like the human 'OFF' Spray. I'm 25. I'm not trying to get married ANYTIME soon. Seriously. I do not want any kind of serious "future" type of relationship at all right now. Here's what little I'm asking for, Universe. I want a man, reasonably handsome, decent in bed. I want company on cold, lonely nights. I want someone to text me now and then to let me know they are thinking about me. I want dates on major holidays. I want cuddling and sex. Thats it. Someone who is around. A companion, if you will. I guess one could look at it from the man's perspective and view it as I want someone I can use. And that would be mostly correct. Christmas and New Years are coming up. Last year I vowed I would have someone to kiss on New Years Eve this year and it doesn't look like thats going to happen once again. 

I like venting on my blog. No one reads this shit, but it does make me feel a little better to write it all and get this shit out of my brain.